Did I imagine it would be like this?

Lesson #1: No matter who you're dealing with, never be too eager to share implements of yourself. It cheapens the things that are important to you.

   I had the sandhill climbing dream again yesterday. It had been awhile and it always has the same people in it. Basically there is this giant WALL of sand and it's very tall and people climb it for fun. It gets very steep and I have a fear of heights that plays upon me in the dream because literally I'm just climbing it with my limbs and am not held up by anything. I was thinking about this a bit ago and I realized I could take from it a metaphor for my life--cus basically it gets terrifying and I slipped a lot in the dream but dug in with my hands down to my fingernails, feeling them getting filled with sand. Life is fucking hard, and I slip down that slope sometimes but I just gotta dig in like a motherfucker, claw my way into staying on that slope. Cus in the dream, I made it to the top, and it was a small ledge and I could only blurrily look down it was so steep, but I had a great feeling of accomplishment for making it that far. Just some thoughts.

And basically, I'm going to be good no matter what happens. I will be happy because I deserve to be. To use Cazwell's words I can't be and I won't be stopped. I will do what I gotta do because I'm strong and an amazing person. I will make it through whatever obstacles present themselves. I have the tools already. I can do it.